i remembered how much i love the smell of lilacs. how much
i miss having a lilac bush right outside my bedroom window, like i did as a little girl. i miss playing under the big lilac bush. i miss cutting sprigs of lilac and putting them in my locker to enjoy all day long in high school.
i forgot that they were my favorite. oh, yellow roses with red tips will always be my favorite gift flower...but lilacs, they are my favorite flower over all other flowers.
lilacs make me feel little girl happy.
i remembered how much i love karen carpenter's voice. that her voice is the most hauntingly beautiful voice i've ever heard. and that tammy scott's voice is the nearest thing in the world. and i remembered that i had decided that if i ever got married someday, tammy must sing. and that every time i go to my home church, i pray that tammy will sing.
and i remembered the stories of my friends, the binkleys. when they returned from india when i was young. how much i wanted to go with them. and how much, in envy, i wanted beautiful sari's like theirs when they returned. i lost my envy in time, but today, oh today, my friend raynor brought me back my very own sari. it's beautiful. it's silk. it's dark teal. did i mention beautiful?
childhood dreams come true.