and i'm terrified.
i'll be the oldest one there. and while my face says, "hi, i'm 15," as one friend recently put it - i was born older. i feel at home with my friends who are married and have families - not only because they are my age, but in many ways i relate to them. but the truth of the matter is, like it or not, i'm in a different place than them, and only hanging out with my married mommy friends has allowed a root of bitterness to be sown inside my heart. and i have to uproot it. not by getting rid of my mommy friends, but by stepping out of my comfort zone and going to a life group of single people - even though i'm petrified of the unknown of it all. will we have anything in common? will i be able to mesh into this already tight-knit group?
my friends at the office have talked me into going - so at 7 pm tonight I should be pulling in the driveway of this small group. pray that i feel God's strength enough to walk in.