while i was there it was fine. they were nice people and it wasn't hard to be social. and it felt like youth group. in fact there were 2 kids from the youth group there - kid's of the leaders. there were two guys who seemed closer to my age and might have some commonalities, but the guys left to go fishing ten minutes after i got there. which left me with young women and shallow conversation. it felt so empty.
the one person i really felt drawn to was the leader - who has kid's my age. not at all surprising.
all the way home i cried to God about how lonely i felt. how i know i am called to trust Him but sometimes it's so hard. if i were in the secular world being 26 and single is normal. but in Christian circles, at least all the ones i know, it's not. so it can be lonely.
so i am attempting to take another painful, scared, yet beautiful step towards trusting God more.