Tuesday, June 16, 2009

sorry to leave everyone hanging

so i went to the life group. (see post below) and i cried most of the way home.

while i was there it was fine. they were nice people and it wasn't hard to be social. and it felt like youth group. in fact there were 2 kids from the youth group there - kid's of the leaders. there were two guys who seemed closer to my age and might have some commonalities, but the guys left to go fishing ten minutes after i got there. which left me with young women and shallow conversation. it felt so empty.

the one person i really felt drawn to was the leader - who has kid's my age. not at all surprising.

all the way home i cried to God about how lonely i felt. how i know i am called to trust Him but sometimes it's so hard. if i were in the secular world being 26 and single is normal. but in Christian circles, at least all the ones i know, it's not. so it can be lonely.

so i am attempting to take another painful, scared, yet beautiful step towards trusting God more.


EmileeHopeBinkleyTurner said...

Hang in there my dear!! I know you don't really want to hear it right now-but God does have a perfect plan for you and being part of a couple will come exactly when it should-He knows what's best! I love you my dear and I will continue to keep your heart in my prayers!! Try to have fun with some young singles in the meantime!

Jenna'sMommy said...

abby, i love you so much. i'm so proud of you for stepping out in faith with this. i know it has to be difficult. know that you are loved. i miss you and wish i could give you hugs right now.

Katie said...

You're not alone. It can be very hard time, but also a beautiful time. God does have something planned. This helped me see things in a new light: http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/ConferenceMessages/ByDate/1667_Were_Not_on_Hold_Biblical_Femininity_for_Single_Women/
If you'd like to talk, please let me know. I never dreamed I'd be encouraging my friends in this way, but God seems to keep putting it in my path lately :) Love you!