and that same old feeling came. not back, because it never leaves. the feeling that i want to be up on that stage, any stage.
and i'm not.
and i would love to cook. all the time. for people.
and i love children. i don't want to not be caring for them.
and i love to write. i would love to sit and write beautiful and hard things.
and i can't imagine not being in ministry
so what do i do with all of these dreams? i have yet to figure out how to do them all.
some days the world seems limitless. some days and today, it hurts.
i wonder if i'm bad for wanting more than i've been given.
on one hand, i want to do these things to bring joy and help to others.
yet my other hand wants to be known famous for any and all.
i don't like discontent.
some days i feel small.
if anyone has heard of any openings for a singing actress chef writer missionary to children, let me know
or maybe i'm already that